PRIDE

WHAT A GLORIOUS DAY! THE COLORS ARE IN FULL DISPLAY AND WE HAVE A BEAUTIFUL FALL BREEZE... LAST NIGHT AT MY 7TH GRADER'S GAME THEY LOST FOR THE FIRST TIME. HOW PROUD I WAS OF HER, AS I SAT THERE AFTER THE GAME AND JUST HELD HER FROM THE SIDE. SHE WAS EXPERIENCING THE AGONY OF DEFEAT. I FELT SO SORRY FOR HER, BUT AT THE SAME TIME I COULDN'T HELP BUT HUG HER AND FEEL SO PROUD. "YOU PLAYED YOUR HEART OUT BABY. YOU SHOULD BE SO PROUD OF YOURSELF!" HER EYES RED AND HER POSTURE SLOUTCHED... SHE JUST LOOKED WHIPPED. THIS MORNING AT WORK I TOLD A FELLOW EMPLOYEE HOW GREAT I THINK MY GIRLS ARE. I TELL MY LITTLE ONE THAT I LOVE HER OR TO HAVE A GREAT DAY AND IN HER SWEET LITTLE VOICE I GET A "THANK YOU." JUST SO GROWN UP. I CAN'T TELL YOU HOW MUCH I LOVE THEM! EVERYONE THAT KNOWS ME AND KNOWS OF THE DIFFICULTIES I HAVE HAD WITH MY PREGNANCIES DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY I WOULD EVER CONSIDER IT AGAIN. THIS IS WHY! TO FEEL THE BABY INSIDE OF YOU, TO SEE THE MAN THAT YOU LOVE SO IN LOVE WITH THIS UNBORN BEING, TALKING TO HIM OR HER AND PLANNING FOR THAT LITTLE PERSONS FUTURE, FEELING THE LOVE AND PRIDE THAT I FELT LAST NIGHT, THAT I FEEL EVERY TIME I SEE MY BABIES SLEEPING OR DOING SOMETHING THAT THEY FEEL SO PROUD OF! THIS IS WHY I CONSIDER IT. THIS IS WHAT I WANT FOR HIM. DO I KNOW THE CONSEQUENCES? DOES HE UNDERSTAND THEM? IF I DO THIS, DO I KNOW THE OUTCOME? NO. NO, I DON'T. BUT I AM WILLING TO TAKE THE CHANCE AND LEAVE IT IN GOD'S HANDS. HOW COULD SOMETHING SO BEAUTIFUL BE DENIED?