It has been so long since I have checked my blog that the web page didn't even come up when I started to type it in.
Life has been fuller than usual lately.
Christmas was absolutely wonderful. We spent it at my parents' home. It was the first time I had been home for Christmas since I was 19 years old and the first time they have had children in the house on Christmas morning in years! It was so much fun!!
My cell phone has been in pieces for quite some time now, which seems to cut my communication with friends a bit. Family continued to call. (They always do.) Christmas cards were light this year (most came from Lance's family), but that's okay. We sent out 9 opposed to our usual 90 this year. I did send our Christmas letter via email for those that I had, but response to those were light as well. It tells me that we are all a bit too busy or maybe that life tends to drift us back and forth to one another over time, like a tide to the shore. I still think of my friends and distant family often and hope they are well.
Times are tough right now. I have faith and know that they will get better. One house will sell, one renter hopefully will pay rent, another will financially disappear, that kind old man at the mall will find a friend, and our girls will return safely.
Hope remains. It always does.
Sunday, December 30, 2007
Wednesday, December 05, 2007
At A Lose
I've been reading some of your blogs today and I agree. Things are So busy right now and my mind has silenced itself a bit.
Lance is still gone. My longing for him is almost overwhelming. I work (I cannot stand on my feet at the end of the day), bank, take care of the house, the dog, the cat, the kids, but it's all done with a sense of robotics. Even eating is difficult unless it is lunch break at work.
You would have to read some of my earlier posts to understand the depth of lose that I have lived through. Lance has completely and fully helped to heal the open wounds and fill my heart. Without him, my mind and body have difficulty... no my entire being wants to shut down. (I sob every time we hang up the phone.)
His absence has given me some time to reflect a bit though on many that I miss and feel I have lost touch with somewhat.
Jenn- I am So thankful God has come to you (Or that you were able to finally let him in) and that your Kingdom is good for you right now. I pray it never ends and this truly is your fairy tale. You deserve it. You certainly have been there for me and I will always love you.
MF- Are you okay? Our text messages have become fewer and fewer. I know this time of year sucks for you and I'm sorry. I think of Lynne every single day and the girls still pray to her every single night. I love you and I miss you.
SS- Your first Christmas. I'm sorry. Please know I will never forget Max.
JR- I miss you sometimes and think of you every single day. I will never forget everything you have taught me, done for me, and the moments we shared. I hope you are well.
My list could go on and on but those are the people that flood my mind daily, that I can't let go of and don't want to.
To everyone else: Love, prayers, and strength to you.
Please know that you too are on my mind and in my heart.
Lance is still gone. My longing for him is almost overwhelming. I work (I cannot stand on my feet at the end of the day), bank, take care of the house, the dog, the cat, the kids, but it's all done with a sense of robotics. Even eating is difficult unless it is lunch break at work.
You would have to read some of my earlier posts to understand the depth of lose that I have lived through. Lance has completely and fully helped to heal the open wounds and fill my heart. Without him, my mind and body have difficulty... no my entire being wants to shut down. (I sob every time we hang up the phone.)
His absence has given me some time to reflect a bit though on many that I miss and feel I have lost touch with somewhat.
Jenn- I am So thankful God has come to you (Or that you were able to finally let him in) and that your Kingdom is good for you right now. I pray it never ends and this truly is your fairy tale. You deserve it. You certainly have been there for me and I will always love you.
MF- Are you okay? Our text messages have become fewer and fewer. I know this time of year sucks for you and I'm sorry. I think of Lynne every single day and the girls still pray to her every single night. I love you and I miss you.
SS- Your first Christmas. I'm sorry. Please know I will never forget Max.
JR- I miss you sometimes and think of you every single day. I will never forget everything you have taught me, done for me, and the moments we shared. I hope you are well.
My list could go on and on but those are the people that flood my mind daily, that I can't let go of and don't want to.
To everyone else: Love, prayers, and strength to you.
Please know that you too are on my mind and in my heart.
Monday, December 03, 2007
Sunday, December 02, 2007
Whatta Weekend
I'm not sure where to begin this morning. What a whirlwind of a weekend!
3. Waking up this morning there must be a foot of snow out there! (I guess I need to shovel, by the way.) It is BEAUTIFUL! I love the snow! (Well. It is our first storm. Talk to me in February.)
2. LSU wins. Will Miles return to Michigan?!? He says no, but I'm not sure if I believe him. I say let that man, and those Boys, enjoy their victory - their championship - and in the end if Miles doesn't want the position FINE. Let's find us a true Victor who wants the position, that will treat our players and school with the respect they deserve. Maybe we already have him. Have we taken a good look at our Defensive Coordinator?
1. My poor parents. (Period) How could such beautiful, giving people, that continue to give give give every day that they live, be SO incredibly violated - again? I try not to hate. (I have a hard time with that.) But the "whys?" will not stop. It angers me so badly that another person thinks that it is okay to go into another's sanctuary and steal! To take a crowbar and demolish such perfect craftsmanship! ...and the wolf. He traveled such a long way to get here. A memory of the perfect vacation... I'm sorry Mom and Dad. I'm sorry that you continue to be challenged. Yes. We all know it could have been worse, but I still pray for your security in knowing that you are safe.
I love you.
3. Waking up this morning there must be a foot of snow out there! (I guess I need to shovel, by the way.) It is BEAUTIFUL! I love the snow! (Well. It is our first storm. Talk to me in February.)
2. LSU wins. Will Miles return to Michigan?!? He says no, but I'm not sure if I believe him. I say let that man, and those Boys, enjoy their victory - their championship - and in the end if Miles doesn't want the position FINE. Let's find us a true Victor who wants the position, that will treat our players and school with the respect they deserve. Maybe we already have him. Have we taken a good look at our Defensive Coordinator?
1. My poor parents. (Period) How could such beautiful, giving people, that continue to give give give every day that they live, be SO incredibly violated - again? I try not to hate. (I have a hard time with that.) But the "whys?" will not stop. It angers me so badly that another person thinks that it is okay to go into another's sanctuary and steal! To take a crowbar and demolish such perfect craftsmanship! ...and the wolf. He traveled such a long way to get here. A memory of the perfect vacation... I'm sorry Mom and Dad. I'm sorry that you continue to be challenged. Yes. We all know it could have been worse, but I still pray for your security in knowing that you are safe.
I love you.
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