Monday, March 19, 2007
Wedding Day Preparations
My wedding dress is purchased, the rose pedals are beautiful and pink and ready to go, the junior bridesmaid dress and her matching hand bag are hanging. my first wedding day gift for Lance is ready to be given, I have a beautiful antique bird cage for the cards, the guest list is complete (it keeps getting larger), rooms are booked, my mom has agreed to walk down the aisle with Dad and I, dinner reservations are made, the minister is booked.... I think we are on our way to Boston!!!!! Yeah!!!!
Sunday, March 11, 2007
A MOTHER'S LONGING
IT'S SUNNY AND WARM TODAY. THE SKY IS SUCH A BEAUTIFUL BLUE. I DON'T REMEMBER WHAT THE WHETHER WAS LIKE ON THIS DAY 15 YEARS AGO. SOMEHOW I REMEMBER IT SNOWY, BUT MAYBE SUNNY THAT AFTERNOON. TIME HAS SINCE CLOUDED SOME OF MY MEMORY.
THE MEMORY THAT WILL BE FOREVER CLEAR IS THE BIRTH OF MY SON. SO INCREDIBLY BEAUTIFUL! I CRIED. I JUST LOOKED AT HIM AND CRIED. HE WAS EVERYTHING A BABY BOY SHOULD BE. LOOKING AT HIM, THERE WAS NO QUESTION AS TO HIS GENDER. HE WAS A HANDSOME LITTLE MAN THROUGH AND THROUGH.
HE CRIED. THE ONLY TIME HE SEEMED IN HIS GLORY IS WHEN HIS MOMMY HELD HIM; JUST LIKE THAT IS WHAT HE HAD WAITED SO LONG FOR. FOR ME TO LOOK AT HIM AND FOR HIM TO LOOK BACK UP AT ME.
OUR TIME TOGETHER WAS SHORT LIVED. HE WAS SO STRONG AND SO INNOCENT. SO TRUSTING.
WHY WAS HE BROUGHT HERE AND WHY WAS HE TAKEN? THIS I WILL NEVER KNOW. WHAT I DO KNOW IS THAT I WILL NEVER FORGET HIM. THE GIRLS AND I PRAY TO HIM, STILL, EVERY NIGHT.
HE IS MY SON. MY FOREVER LOST BOY. THE BOY I LONG TO HOLD AND I PRAY, ONE DAY THAT I WILL BE ALLOWED THE JOY OF DOING SO. IN THE MEANTIME, T, WAIT FOR MOMMY. WAIT FOR ME.
THE MEMORY THAT WILL BE FOREVER CLEAR IS THE BIRTH OF MY SON. SO INCREDIBLY BEAUTIFUL! I CRIED. I JUST LOOKED AT HIM AND CRIED. HE WAS EVERYTHING A BABY BOY SHOULD BE. LOOKING AT HIM, THERE WAS NO QUESTION AS TO HIS GENDER. HE WAS A HANDSOME LITTLE MAN THROUGH AND THROUGH.
HE CRIED. THE ONLY TIME HE SEEMED IN HIS GLORY IS WHEN HIS MOMMY HELD HIM; JUST LIKE THAT IS WHAT HE HAD WAITED SO LONG FOR. FOR ME TO LOOK AT HIM AND FOR HIM TO LOOK BACK UP AT ME.
OUR TIME TOGETHER WAS SHORT LIVED. HE WAS SO STRONG AND SO INNOCENT. SO TRUSTING.
WHY WAS HE BROUGHT HERE AND WHY WAS HE TAKEN? THIS I WILL NEVER KNOW. WHAT I DO KNOW IS THAT I WILL NEVER FORGET HIM. THE GIRLS AND I PRAY TO HIM, STILL, EVERY NIGHT.
HE IS MY SON. MY FOREVER LOST BOY. THE BOY I LONG TO HOLD AND I PRAY, ONE DAY THAT I WILL BE ALLOWED THE JOY OF DOING SO. IN THE MEANTIME, T, WAIT FOR MOMMY. WAIT FOR ME.
Monday, March 05, 2007
INSANITY
"MOM! MOM! CAN I? PLEASE!!! WHY NOT! YOU LET L! NUN-UH!"
LORD GOD! PLEASE HELP ME FIND MY SANITY! IS IT LACK OF MEDICATION THAT IS GETTING ME? I HAVE THE PERFECT LIFE HERE. HELLO! IS ANYONE LISTENING TO ME? I THINK I AM GOING INSANE!
IS MY SWEATER AT THE CLEANERS OR ON THE CLOSET FLOOR? WHY HAVEN'T I TAKEN IT TO THE CLEANERS BY NOW?
$210 FOR A CELL PHONE BILL!!! WHY HAVEN'T I SWITCHED CARRIERS YET!?
DOG HAIR! DOG HAIR EVERYWHERE! WHY DIDN'T I VACUUM THIS MORNING!? UH!!!!
SURGERY!? SHIT! CAN I DO SURGERY THIS FRIDAY?! I JUST GOT IN GOOD WITH THE COMPANY I WANTED TO GET A JOB WITH. NOW I'M GOING FOR SURGERY? AM I INSANE!? BUT IF I WAIT WILL IT INTERFERE WITH THE WEDDING DATE?!
LITTLE A! IS SHE BETTER? BIG A! DOES SHE KNOW I CALLED AND REMEMBERED HER BIRTHDAY!?
UH! I FORGOT AMY! DID I CALL AND WISH HER A HAPPY BIRTHDAY?
DOES ALL OF THIS SEEM INSANE? IT FEELS INSANE.
I THINK I NEED A... WHO KNOWS.
LORD GOD! PLEASE HELP ME FIND MY SANITY! IS IT LACK OF MEDICATION THAT IS GETTING ME? I HAVE THE PERFECT LIFE HERE. HELLO! IS ANYONE LISTENING TO ME? I THINK I AM GOING INSANE!
IS MY SWEATER AT THE CLEANERS OR ON THE CLOSET FLOOR? WHY HAVEN'T I TAKEN IT TO THE CLEANERS BY NOW?
$210 FOR A CELL PHONE BILL!!! WHY HAVEN'T I SWITCHED CARRIERS YET!?
DOG HAIR! DOG HAIR EVERYWHERE! WHY DIDN'T I VACUUM THIS MORNING!? UH!!!!
SURGERY!? SHIT! CAN I DO SURGERY THIS FRIDAY?! I JUST GOT IN GOOD WITH THE COMPANY I WANTED TO GET A JOB WITH. NOW I'M GOING FOR SURGERY? AM I INSANE!? BUT IF I WAIT WILL IT INTERFERE WITH THE WEDDING DATE?!
LITTLE A! IS SHE BETTER? BIG A! DOES SHE KNOW I CALLED AND REMEMBERED HER BIRTHDAY!?
UH! I FORGOT AMY! DID I CALL AND WISH HER A HAPPY BIRTHDAY?
DOES ALL OF THIS SEEM INSANE? IT FEELS INSANE.
I THINK I NEED A... WHO KNOWS.
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