Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself.
Each day has enough trouble of its own.' Matthew 6:34.
After all today is the tomorrow you worried about yesterday.
Enjoy every moment-
Make these the times that you will look back and smile upon.
Thursday, October 23, 2008
Friday, October 03, 2008
I'm Frustrated
Let me take a deep breath.
Inhale in.
Exhale out.
Slowly now.
Let's try it again.
Good.
My car is having a few minor maintenance issues.
The problem is that these "minor" little issues cost $1200 to fix. (according to the first bid that we received) Oh! $998 because "business is slow, they need work"... and did I mention - we just gave them $1200 two months ago to fix Lance's car?
Okay. Bit of a problem here. We don't have $1000!!!
I'm a little stressed.
So, when I call to ask for help, on what I should do, and I have to answer the phone for 10 million customers in 1 hour - while trying to do that, PLEASE do not roll your eyes at me on the other end, because I CAN see it over the phone!
And if you want me to do it - then great!
1. Throw my shoulders back!
2. Begin to ask the family that I hold dear, 45 hours per week, for help.
a. Who do you recommend?
b. What do you think of this bid?
c. Who do you think we should call?
3. Start the calls!
Yes! Found a great one. Sounds nice, intelligent, has traveled the globe, and YES he loves Switzerland! I have found our man!
I call my manager, and friend. He's excited for us! Drop the car on Sunday and he will bring it back into work (35 miles away) when it is ready! Awesome!
I call Lance (by this time it is 3pm mind you, because I have been "kicking ass and taking names" at work today). He says,"I'd feel more comfortable just taking it to Midas 5 miles away. (Real laid back)
OH MY LIVING GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
"Oh. Okay." (shaking head side to side "like duh")
Inhale in.
Exhale out.
Slowly now.
Let's try it again.
Good.
My car is having a few minor maintenance issues.
The problem is that these "minor" little issues cost $1200 to fix. (according to the first bid that we received) Oh! $998 because "business is slow, they need work"... and did I mention - we just gave them $1200 two months ago to fix Lance's car?
Okay. Bit of a problem here. We don't have $1000!!!
I'm a little stressed.
So, when I call to ask for help, on what I should do, and I have to answer the phone for 10 million customers in 1 hour - while trying to do that, PLEASE do not roll your eyes at me on the other end, because I CAN see it over the phone!
And if you want me to do it - then great!
1. Throw my shoulders back!
2. Begin to ask the family that I hold dear, 45 hours per week, for help.
a. Who do you recommend?
b. What do you think of this bid?
c. Who do you think we should call?
3. Start the calls!
Yes! Found a great one. Sounds nice, intelligent, has traveled the globe, and YES he loves Switzerland! I have found our man!
I call my manager, and friend. He's excited for us! Drop the car on Sunday and he will bring it back into work (35 miles away) when it is ready! Awesome!
I call Lance (by this time it is 3pm mind you, because I have been "kicking ass and taking names" at work today). He says,"I'd feel more comfortable just taking it to Midas 5 miles away. (Real laid back)
OH MY LIVING GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
"Oh. Okay." (shaking head side to side "like duh")
Thursday, September 18, 2008
Friday
I want to go home.
Home to a life of security.
Home to a life of being outdoors.
Wandering in the woods,
Picking flowers.
Two tracking around in my pickup truck.
Walking the beach at the bay.
Riding around on my snowmobile in the sun.
Taking a four-wheeler anywhere I want to explore.
Laying down on my bed,
Looking out the window,
Hearing football in the living room.
The smell of a roast in the oven.
I miss home.
Home to a life of security.
Home to a life of being outdoors.
Wandering in the woods,
Picking flowers.
Two tracking around in my pickup truck.
Walking the beach at the bay.
Riding around on my snowmobile in the sun.
Taking a four-wheeler anywhere I want to explore.
Laying down on my bed,
Looking out the window,
Hearing football in the living room.
The smell of a roast in the oven.
I miss home.
Worrisome
Well, it's been almost 1 month since I have blogged. Sad. Isn't it. It's not that I don't think about it. I am just hesitant to do it at work and by the time I get home, I don't even want to look at a computer!
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Here is what your day can feel like when you are thinking of the one you love but cannot reach that person:
Longing:
1. strong, persistent desire or craving, esp. for something unattainable or distant: filled with longing for home.
2. an instance of this: a sudden longing to see old friends.
Concern
–noun
1. worry, solicitude, or anxiety: to show concern for someone in trouble.
Worry
–noun
1. a worried condition or feeling; uneasiness or anxiety.
2. a cause of uneasiness or anxiety; trouble.
Anxiety
noun
1. A state of uneasiness and apprehension, as about future uncertainties.
2. Psychiatry: A state of apprehension, uncertainty, and fear resulting from the anticipation of a realistic or fantasized threatening event or situation, often impairing physical and psychological functioning.
Anger
–noun
1. a strong feeling of displeasure and belligerence aroused by a wrong; wrath; ire.
2. Chiefly British Dialect. pain or smart, as of a sore.
3. Obsolete. grief; trouble.
...and when the moment finally happens:
Relief
–noun
1. alleviation, ease, or deliverance through the removal of pain, distress, oppression, etc.
2. a means or thing that relieves pain, distress, anxiety, etc.
...plus tears of joy and relief to alleviate the tension.
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Here is what your day can feel like when you are thinking of the one you love but cannot reach that person:
Longing:
1. strong, persistent desire or craving, esp. for something unattainable or distant: filled with longing for home.
2. an instance of this: a sudden longing to see old friends.
Concern
–noun
1. worry, solicitude, or anxiety: to show concern for someone in trouble.
Worry
–noun
1. a worried condition or feeling; uneasiness or anxiety.
2. a cause of uneasiness or anxiety; trouble.
Anxiety
noun
1. A state of uneasiness and apprehension, as about future uncertainties.
2. Psychiatry: A state of apprehension, uncertainty, and fear resulting from the anticipation of a realistic or fantasized threatening event or situation, often impairing physical and psychological functioning.
Anger
–noun
1. a strong feeling of displeasure and belligerence aroused by a wrong; wrath; ire.
2. Chiefly British Dialect. pain or smart, as of a sore.
3. Obsolete. grief; trouble.
...and when the moment finally happens:
Relief
–noun
1. alleviation, ease, or deliverance through the removal of pain, distress, oppression, etc.
2. a means or thing that relieves pain, distress, anxiety, etc.
...plus tears of joy and relief to alleviate the tension.
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
Thursday, August 07, 2008
Breathing Easier
Ahh... The repairs are complete, almost.
I continue to peak through the cracks, almost hoping for a clear view, but then I hurry and look away. Happy to be dancing around in my happy home again. The clear sunny sky above me, my earth walls around me.
I continue to peak through the cracks, almost hoping for a clear view, but then I hurry and look away. Happy to be dancing around in my happy home again. The clear sunny sky above me, my earth walls around me.
Wednesday, August 06, 2008
Damaged Fortress
I have created a fortress around myself over the past few years. I try not to look at the past. It hurts too much.
It's like I have been kicked in the stomach. A rock came crashing through one of my walls last night and I have been running around gathering clay and straw and water and everything else I can find to repair the damage. My problem is, as hard as I am working to fix it, I can still see out of the opening. I don't want to! It hurts to see outside! Please stop! I don't want to know what happened! I can't go there! I can't. (Head hanging low)
I will never understand. Never. The why's, the how-could-you's. Everything was taken from us.
My life has been rebuild. My life is wonderful. I have a man that loves me more than anything in this whole world!
I want to beg of him to help me repair this hole! (My stomach hurts. I cannot sleep at night. The pain is seeping in.) But I can't. I can't hurt him. (I can't talk about it.) I can't let anyone else hurt him either! I will do everything to protect him and our children!
So instead I will struggle. I will pray and I will get this hole repaired - by myself. Head up. Shoulders back. Biceps straining with the load. But it's working and I will!
My love is never ending. My strength transferred. He is our blessing from God and I shall forever be grateful. Please give me strength...
It's like I have been kicked in the stomach. A rock came crashing through one of my walls last night and I have been running around gathering clay and straw and water and everything else I can find to repair the damage. My problem is, as hard as I am working to fix it, I can still see out of the opening. I don't want to! It hurts to see outside! Please stop! I don't want to know what happened! I can't go there! I can't. (Head hanging low)
I will never understand. Never. The why's, the how-could-you's. Everything was taken from us.
My life has been rebuild. My life is wonderful. I have a man that loves me more than anything in this whole world!
I want to beg of him to help me repair this hole! (My stomach hurts. I cannot sleep at night. The pain is seeping in.) But I can't. I can't hurt him. (I can't talk about it.) I can't let anyone else hurt him either! I will do everything to protect him and our children!
So instead I will struggle. I will pray and I will get this hole repaired - by myself. Head up. Shoulders back. Biceps straining with the load. But it's working and I will!
My love is never ending. My strength transferred. He is our blessing from God and I shall forever be grateful. Please give me strength...
Sunday, August 03, 2008
Deep Breath
I struggle with why am I a "giver". I don't even know if that is what I would call myself. Maybe I just can't stand up for myself. I am constantly the main character that Julia Roberts played in "Runaway Bride". She couldn't tell Richard Gere's character how she liked her eggs because she had always thought she liked her eggs according to however her partners liked their eggs at the time. Was it scrambled? Sunny side up? With dill? She didn't know.
Why is it when I go into a store I will buy the ingredients that another likes instead of what I want? A shirt for another but not one for myself? I will walk out of an art gallery and dream of the beautiful $11 handcrafted coffee mug, that I would have loved to have had for myself and day dream about it, instead of just saying how much I love it and buy it.
Sometimes I would love to grab the snacks and soda that make me happy along with that People magazine that I enjoy so much, instead of making do with what is already available to me.
I just want to drift down the river with a picnic lunch with the man that I love instead I ensure him how much I love him and that I would love to do what is suggested instead.
I love my life and I love what God has placed before me and God please forgive me. I want to canoe and not golf, I want a Diet Coke not water. I want a radio under my kitchen cabinet to bring music into the room. I want my girls to be able to write on their bedroom walls.
I feel how slumped over I am with the weight that need not be, tears streaming from my eyes, longing to cry in my mom's lap.
Sit proud, take a deep breath, blow your nose, put a smile on your face, get out of the darkness, and go for a walk. Nobody will know the difference or that your pity party existed. This is who you are. This is who I am.
Why is it when I go into a store I will buy the ingredients that another likes instead of what I want? A shirt for another but not one for myself? I will walk out of an art gallery and dream of the beautiful $11 handcrafted coffee mug, that I would have loved to have had for myself and day dream about it, instead of just saying how much I love it and buy it.
Sometimes I would love to grab the snacks and soda that make me happy along with that People magazine that I enjoy so much, instead of making do with what is already available to me.
I just want to drift down the river with a picnic lunch with the man that I love instead I ensure him how much I love him and that I would love to do what is suggested instead.
I love my life and I love what God has placed before me and God please forgive me. I want to canoe and not golf, I want a Diet Coke not water. I want a radio under my kitchen cabinet to bring music into the room. I want my girls to be able to write on their bedroom walls.
I feel how slumped over I am with the weight that need not be, tears streaming from my eyes, longing to cry in my mom's lap.
Sit proud, take a deep breath, blow your nose, put a smile on your face, get out of the darkness, and go for a walk. Nobody will know the difference or that your pity party existed. This is who you are. This is who I am.
Sunday, July 27, 2008
Good Weekend
As I opened the Weekend Edition of The Wall Street Journal last night, I was so happy to find so many of my most enriching topics to read about.
1 - Carolyn Kennedy, on the front page.
2 - Dalai Lama on page two. and last but never least
3 - Randy Pausch
In case you have not listened. PLEASE take the time:
Rest In Peace. We know you will.
1 - Carolyn Kennedy, on the front page.
2 - Dalai Lama on page two. and last but never least
3 - Randy Pausch
In case you have not listened. PLEASE take the time:
Rest In Peace. We know you will.
Thursday, July 24, 2008
Du Ditty Du
I heard this song on my way to work this morning. It just made me smile and happy.
And the video reminds me of my girlfriends that I will be seeing tomorrow. Lord help our husbands!!!
Cheers!!!
And the video reminds me of my girlfriends that I will be seeing tomorrow. Lord help our husbands!!!
Cheers!!!
Friday, July 04, 2008
Summer's Breeze
It's been a busy summer thus far.
The lawn is a beautiful green with flowers in as many lawns as you pass. The Blue Angels have been flying overhead with a roar of a zillion. Vineyards have been tasted. Deep sultry Madeleine has been heard accompanied by Dr. John. The stores of downtown have been visited, on more than one occasion. There will be parades and fireworks abound today.
These are the simple yet pleasure filled moments of life that I have learned to take in and enjoy.
The girls have been gone since mid-June with just a short return recently. They seem happy this year. Happy while they are away and happy to return. They are learning to enjoy their moments and their surroundings and find solace at each home. Beautiful they are. Simply beautiful. My heart overflows.
New England soon and the sweet smell of the mountain and the water.
Aah...
The joys of breathing-
Of life.
The lawn is a beautiful green with flowers in as many lawns as you pass. The Blue Angels have been flying overhead with a roar of a zillion. Vineyards have been tasted. Deep sultry Madeleine has been heard accompanied by Dr. John. The stores of downtown have been visited, on more than one occasion. There will be parades and fireworks abound today.
These are the simple yet pleasure filled moments of life that I have learned to take in and enjoy.
The girls have been gone since mid-June with just a short return recently. They seem happy this year. Happy while they are away and happy to return. They are learning to enjoy their moments and their surroundings and find solace at each home. Beautiful they are. Simply beautiful. My heart overflows.
New England soon and the sweet smell of the mountain and the water.
Aah...
The joys of breathing-
Of life.
Sunday, May 18, 2008
Le Amare' Hasta Finales Del Tiempo
"When we walk to the edge of all the light we have and take the step into the darkness of the unknown, we must believe that one of two things will happen: there will be something solid for us to stand on or we will be taught to fly." -Frank Outlaw
and we flew.
I have many people to thank for helping me to take flight, but none more greater than Lance.
He has taught me that life is like a flower floating on the water, there is beauty in every day.
He gives unconditionally, whole-heartily. Never asking, expecting, or taking.
Thank you, God, for this man and everything he stands for.
One year has passed yet it seems our souls have been connected within the universe since before our time.
Happy Anniversary Baby
and we flew.
I have many people to thank for helping me to take flight, but none more greater than Lance.
He has taught me that life is like a flower floating on the water, there is beauty in every day.
He gives unconditionally, whole-heartily. Never asking, expecting, or taking.
Thank you, God, for this man and everything he stands for.
One year has passed yet it seems our souls have been connected within the universe since before our time.
Happy Anniversary Baby
Wednesday, May 07, 2008
Checking In
It's been awhile since I've been here. I'm not even sure that I want to be here now, but I do stop by to visit and check up on my ol' friends.
I hope you are all well.
When the words return and time prevails, so shall I.
I hope you are all well.
When the words return and time prevails, so shall I.
Thursday, April 03, 2008
New Found Spirit
Hello All!
I was told the other day that I have a few followers from my past.
Hello! We think of you often! Thank you for finding me! ...and to a little missy we know in Bulldawg country, "GET ON THAT PUMP!!! It's incredibly awesome! I can't begin to tell you the benefits! I know. I know. I know! but think about it. Okay? Okay."
Well, we've had a lot going on.
We moved to our new city at the end of February. We love it here! We love our house. We love our schools. Lance loves his job here and I found a great job within 2 weeks time! I work with amazing people! I can't believe that so many kind decent people are available to me every day. God truly has blessed each of us.
The girls are with their other half for Spring break. I talk to them &/or chat online with them every day. They seem happy and well and of course full of spirit.
I've missed blogging. I'm happy to be here. I'll visit as often as I can.
God Bless and know we think of all of you.
Becc
I was told the other day that I have a few followers from my past.
Hello! We think of you often! Thank you for finding me! ...and to a little missy we know in Bulldawg country, "GET ON THAT PUMP!!! It's incredibly awesome! I can't begin to tell you the benefits! I know. I know. I know! but think about it. Okay? Okay."
Well, we've had a lot going on.
We moved to our new city at the end of February. We love it here! We love our house. We love our schools. Lance loves his job here and I found a great job within 2 weeks time! I work with amazing people! I can't believe that so many kind decent people are available to me every day. God truly has blessed each of us.
The girls are with their other half for Spring break. I talk to them &/or chat online with them every day. They seem happy and well and of course full of spirit.
I've missed blogging. I'm happy to be here. I'll visit as often as I can.
God Bless and know we think of all of you.
Becc
Sunday, February 17, 2008
White Hair Panick
OH MY LIVING LORD!!!!!
As all of you may or may not know, I let go of the blonde and went dark. Right?
Wrong!!!!!!!
I am seeing 1-2 inches of growth that are white!!!!
Bull honky Baby!!!
Wrinkles. My age. My little flubber belly. DO NOT bother me.
This does!!!!!
As all of you may or may not know, I let go of the blonde and went dark. Right?
Wrong!!!!!!!
I am seeing 1-2 inches of growth that are white!!!!
Bull honky Baby!!!
Wrinkles. My age. My little flubber belly. DO NOT bother me.
This does!!!!!
Saturday, February 09, 2008
Adventure
Hello America!
Just kidding! I've been away so long. I feel like I've returned from a long trip.
We have entered The Tiger into our Mac and I feel like a new blogger! I love it!!
It has been busy here! I now work two jobs that I absolutely love, the girls are doing great, we sold our house, and we're moving to a new city to be a family again! Woo Hoo!!
I stand by my moto that Life Is Great! Full of stumbles but GREAT!
Hope all is well with all of you!
Becc
Just kidding! I've been away so long. I feel like I've returned from a long trip.
We have entered The Tiger into our Mac and I feel like a new blogger! I love it!!
It has been busy here! I now work two jobs that I absolutely love, the girls are doing great, we sold our house, and we're moving to a new city to be a family again! Woo Hoo!!
I stand by my moto that Life Is Great! Full of stumbles but GREAT!
Hope all is well with all of you!
Becc
Sunday, January 27, 2008
Keeping The Faith
Sundays's Quote, before I head off to work:
"True love doesn't just fill your heart, it overflows into your whole body and soul."
"True love doesn't just fill your heart, it overflows into your whole body and soul."
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
Volcanic Eruption
The calm. The calm before the storm.
The stream and molten rock slowly begin to rise.
A small eruption occurs.
The smoldering gases cannot withstand the pressure any longer and the volcano erupts with a violent force.
God grant me the strength I must have and protect my children from the wrath that is bound to bestow them.
I have held them for as long as I can, to make them feel safe. Now I must shield them with my entire being!
The stream and molten rock slowly begin to rise.
A small eruption occurs.
The smoldering gases cannot withstand the pressure any longer and the volcano erupts with a violent force.
God grant me the strength I must have and protect my children from the wrath that is bound to bestow them.
I have held them for as long as I can, to make them feel safe. Now I must shield them with my entire being!
Sunday, January 13, 2008
Looking Toward Our Future
Our goal for 2008 is to become Debt Free (other than our primary home).
I am SO looking forward to this day, when Lance and I can scream "We are debt free!!!!"
What an amazing feeling that will be!
We are taking Baby Steps and we are on our first, but this is so soothing. To know we are on our way... Wow!
Pray for us and wish us luck!
I am SO looking forward to this day, when Lance and I can scream "We are debt free!!!!"
What an amazing feeling that will be!
We are taking Baby Steps and we are on our first, but this is so soothing. To know we are on our way... Wow!
Pray for us and wish us luck!
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